That winter syndrome thingie

[kikotei]

I've suddenly realized how hard I've been hit by that nasty winter depression.

I feel like I'm drowning, or there's an iron band around my chest and it's hard to breath sometimes. It's really hard to explain. I know why it hitting me harder this year than it has in the past. But there's not a whole hell of a lot I can do about it. It's not something that is within my power or wallet to fix.

Now please don't anyone take this the way it sounds, but this is a fact that I may have to put all my sharper crafting impliments away. I won't do anything like that, I never have. But I have thought about it in the past, and it scared the crap outta me. But that was years ago, and I'm not feeling like that and haven't for a while. But the suddenness of this, funk if you will, is disturbing.

Also, and this is my rampant insecurity rearing it's head, but I feel like I've pissed off most of the people I normally chat with. Rationally I know that people have lives and the holidays are looming like the giant they are, but that irrational part of me that sits at home and stares at the walls all night thinks that people hate me. It makes me feel like I'm back in high school, trying to talk to people while they ignore me and talk over me. Completely and utterly irrational, I know.

My appologies those who read through my irrational whining.

Comments

[cassiopeia13.livejournal.com]

*HUGZ* I love you Amy! And of course you're not pissing people off, Silly thing to think, but it is getting close to Winter and cold and icky, so I can understand the depression.

Miss you sooo much! I wanted to go get some manga and just chill at the mall the other day and blah! no one to go with it sucks so bad. I'll be home Christmas so save that monday for me! We can do silly things ^__^!

*HUGZ!!!!!!!! *sends lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of love*

[kikotei.livejournal.com]

Will do. I usually have mondays free anyway.

[cassiopeia13.livejournal.com]

Yep I know. That's why you should save it for meeeeee...

Cause I need anime and mall and Amy-chan to talk to ...

AHHH *CRIES* So lonly down here *sniffles*

[sharona1x2.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm a little down right now, too, so I know how you feel. I hope the bad feelings pass quickly. I'm sure it's nothing you've done wrong to other people. You're a very sweet person.

[kikotei.livejournal.com]

Thanks Sharon. I might be sweet like every one says, but I also have a very bad habit of putting my foot in my mouth and not realizing it. ^___^;;;

[sharona1x2.livejournal.com]

Amy, I think that happens to most of the rest of us, too. Goodness knows I suffer from that. Don't be too hard on yourself. *huggles*

[genkisakka.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie! ::SNUGS:: The holidays are such a sucky time for a lot of people -- winter's setting in, everyone's running around with holiday errands, family dramas are flaring up and colds are going around. ::sulks and coughs up another lung:: Don't EVER apologize for feeling blue and expressing it -- it's always better to talk about it.

I think it's past time for a NYC play date -- want to meet me in the city on Saturday Dec. 11? ;) Let me know!

[kikotei.livejournal.com]

Thanks Sakka-chan ::glomps::

I know that I can talk to people, it's just doing the actual talking is hard.

[silvertales.livejournal.com]

Hey, irrational whining sets in every now and then, everyone is entitled.
*huggles*

[kikotei.livejournal.com]

Thanks Kit-chan ::hugs::

Oh, and I may have a commission somewhere down the line for you. Probably not for a while and it will all depend on how much money we can dig up for the program.

[silvertales.livejournal.com]

Woot! Commissions! *grins*

I can be patient.



Really.





Honest.